Recently my sister and cousins and all our respective kids held our annual Xmas cookie extravaganza. Each year we gather with our receipes and our ingredients for fun & laughter culminating in about a zillion xmas cookies on my cousin’s kitchen counter. It’s tradition, it’s fun and it’s one of the only times of the year we all are together in one room. I love it.
What I don’t love though is the aftermath of the utterly devestating sugar binge and tailspin I can’t seem to avoid each year. Although I logically know better and can avoid eating cookies without issue any other time of the year – all bets are off on xmas cookie day. Each year I tell myself – nope – not this year Shannon. You’ve got this. And each year, the dang cookies get the best of me. I think I ingested more sugar in that one day that I did all year combined – EEEEEEKKKK.
But, what IS different this year is that I told myself it was ok. I didn’t experience the usual guilt and remorse. The usual disgust with myself. The usual after-binge feelings (I know some of you know what I’m talking about here – the inner dialogues we have with ourselves at these times is brutal and horrible). I gave myself permission this year on cookie day. I gave my self permission because I know that 85% of the time year-round I make healthy choices. I gave myself permission because I know that for me to fully enjoy cookie day I want to taste test! And I gave myself permission because I know that I will pick myself back up, pull myself out of the sugar craving tailspin and get back to normal. (sidenote – this is not an easy task, once you get that sugar in you, it’s more addictive than some drugs – but you CAN do it).
This holiday season – what will you tell yourself? Will you beat yourself up? Will you go through the normal yo-yo emotions of self-hatred for eating something “you shouldn’t”? I hope not. My hope for you this holiday season is for you to enjoy yourself – you only live once for goodness sakes. And if that means having some xmas cookies (or whatever it may be) than so be it. Hand yourself out some forgiveness, grace and kindness – and then, find your support network and get back to your normal. And if your normal is not the most healthy, then in 2020 I encourage you to find your healthy!
Happy holidays!!